The .380 Decision

c51dd68eb6682bc7f6793db883bc4fb1I am not a .380 type. To be fair, I haven’t shot one but I have heard about the recoil and the guns themselves are small. I’d rather have a good handle on my single stack 9mm than not have a firm grip on a .380. HOWEVER, since I will eventually be teaching others, I want a variety of calibers for new shooters to experience. In the past shopping for a firearm, I cannot tell you how many times I was handed a pink .380 pistol. Not these days, I will tell you what I am looking for, straight away.

I am torn between a Glock 42, Ruger LCP, and Walther PK380. Capacity is 6+1 except for the Walther, which has capacity for 8!


The Glock 42

PROS: Easy to dismantle. Simple operation. Reliable. Customizable. Comes with TWO magazines (super plus!)

CONS: No manual safety for beginners. I have heard bad reviews of this model, stating failures to feed and eject.

Barrel Length 3.25″
Height 4.13″
Width .94″
Weight (unloaded)


.86 lbs.




The Ruger LCP

PROS: Dependable, used by law enforcement as a BUG (back up gun). Tons of accessories available, common choice. Very ergonomical. Very slim profile, easy to conceal.

CONS: Comes with ONE magazine (C’mon Ruger, get with the program!!!) No manual safety.

Weight 9.4 oz (270 g)
Length 5.16 in (131 mm)
Barrel length 2.75 in (70 mm)
Width .82 in (21 mm)


3.6 in (91 mm)

$399-419 *Found at $199 online at Palmetto State Armory


walther-pk380-pistolThe Walther PK380

PROS: Best ergonomics! Feels good in the hand. 8 ROUNDS! Manual safety for beginners.

CONS: A little heavier, tiny bit larger than Glock 42 or Ruger LCP. Take down tool needed. ONE magazine again?! Walther, get with the program!!
After further consideration: too big for a .380, just get a 9mm- they are the same size.

Weight 22.4 oz (0.64 kg)
Length 6.5 in (17 cm)
Barrel length 3.66 in (9.3 cm)
Width 1.2 in (3.0 cm)


5.2 in (13 cm)

$379-$419 (with laser)


If I was looking to purchase for my own personal use, I would include the Remington RM380. I have heard nothing but good things about it and it comes with TWO magazines and is significantly less than the Glock 42.

Which do I choose? All are great firearms, truly…but for the classroom use, price reigns king and I cannot refuse a $199 price tag for a Ruger LCP at Palmetto State Armory. Unless there’s a better deal at the gun show…which there WAS!

Keep in mind when ordering online, you have shipping and taxes still, but if you have gun show come your way, you can get specialized prices if you look hard and can get the vendor to agree. I picked up a new Ruger LCP in Kryptek Neptune for only $219.00 out the door. Yes, out the door, no taxes, no other costs. If I had ordered from Palmetto State Armory, there would have been more taxes and I would end up paying close to $240 or above. This little bugger is tiny, I can put her in my pocket. I can see the easily to conceal likeability but we’ll see more after I shoot her. There is no manual safety but a good holster solves that.




Give up? Pa-cha!

The official pout.

My parents would say I am beyond stubborn. I just go after what I want to do, if I am impassioned about it, good luck stopping me. However, I am not perfect and I don’t have all the answers. Obstacles?

Sure, I trip over them trying to find a way around them. I may get bruised but I keep going. I don’t know what to say to excusers. I don’t know what to do when my own children come to me with endless excuses.

I have NO IDEA what I am doing with this website. NOT a clue. I used to blog over at Blogger and did a little CSS but today’s acronyms are mind-boggling! I know I want to move my website from wordpress to another host to be able to do more things (as cost-effectively as possible). I am struggling through because I am not independently wealthy, I would rather learn how to do something and be self-reliant than pay someone else to do something I could do.

Is that stubborn? Okay, well maybe a little.

stub·born adjective

 having or showing dogged determination not to change one’s attitude or position on something, especially in spite of good arguments or reasons to do so.

I don’t think that is a bad thing unless you are being stubborn for bad reasons. In spite of good arguments?? That I would save time if I hired someone else? Maybe but I would spend a WHOLE lot more by not learning it myself and being willing to struggle through the concepts that sounds like alien language.

You don’t have to know everything to start learning. All you need to learn is to have a determination to learn and be willing to do what it takes to become better. So what if I completely screw up my website, I can build another one. So what if I don’t shoot well ONE time at the range, did I pay attention to why I didn’t shoot well? So what if I embarrass myself in public? Who really cares?SettingGoals

I want things to be easy just like everyone else. I prefer not to be so persistent all the time. I am not perfect, I will make mistakes. I will pout, scream, shout, be upset and then get over it and keep at it. I embrace my difficult side, always secretly have. GRIN

I know teenagers that really struggle with overcoming self-induced obstacles. My husband calls it Eeyore syndrome, woe-is-me nothing ever goes right for me. It’s not just teenagers with that outlook, I know plenty of adults with Eeyore syndrome too. The focus is more on the problems than the solutions, the prize goes out of focus. Of course, by the prize, I mean accomplishing the goal.

What I have found time and time again is that the missing piece that keeps me from my goal is usually me. Do you find that too?

I will stop allowing new information and terms to overwhelm me, I will learn what they mean and how it applies. I will take my time and learn how to do this website stuff, my website may disappear for a little while but it will be back once I figure out what I did wrong. Hopefully.





Be a Legend


Calamity Jane was a woman of the Wild West renowned for her sharp-shooting, whiskey swilling, and cross-dressing ways – but also for her kindness towards others.

In 1875, Calamity Jane traveled with an U.S. Army troop into the Black Hills of South Dakota and soon drifted to the lawless town of Deadwood. At this point the legends surrounding her life become abundant and the facts harder to find. She is said to have had numerous affairs with some of the most notorious desperados of the time. One such story was her relationship with Western legend Wild Bill Hickok, whom she probably did meet in Deadwood. Their alleged dalliance launched her name into the annals of Western folklore. Even Jane herself, in her autobiography, spun a wild tale of capturing Jack McCall, after he murdered Wild Bill. Nearly all historians discount any intimate relationship between the two and Deadwood’s own newspaper accounts report that McCall was captured by town’s people soon after he killed Hickok.

Calamity Jane was also known for her softer side. In her autobiography, she takes credit for rescuing a runaway stagecoach fleeing from a Cheyenne Indian war party by bravely driving the coach to Deadwood with six passengers and a wounded driver. There are also accounts from several sources of her helping nurse patients during a smallpox epidemic in Deadwood. The accounts have several versions and documentation of her role in the events is suspect, but the stories are plausible because the events did occur.

Calamity Jane’s private life is even more fabled. In addition to her alleged relationship to Hickok, there were saucy tales, creatively recorded by Western dime novel authors, of wild sex, a child born, and even marriage to Hickok. There are numerous stories, with varying levels of credibility, that Jane was a wife and mother one time. Around 1885, she supposedly married a man named Burke (Edward or Clinton) and gave birth to a daughter in 1887. There are numerous accounts of her seen with a young girl in several small towns throughout the West in the 1880s and 1890s, but no marriage license or birth certificate exists. In 1941, a woman claimed to be Calamity Jane’s and Wild Bill Hickok’s daughter, but was later proved to be a fraud.


She made herself into a legend, sadly an alcoholic but none the less, a woman standing against the norms of her time with dignity and finesse. A reminder, you dictate your own life. The only thing stopping you is you. Be A LEGEND!


You are your own worst enemy- be your own best friend.


What are you doing with your life if you are constantly putting yourself down? Stop the negative talk and start motivating yourself. Surround yourself with motivation: people who motivate you, subscribe to positive thought feeds on Facebook or other social media. Have a goal, always…something to attain, or something to look forward to.

I challenge you to take that ‘goal’ in your mind, like the infamous, I have to lose weight and make a plan with actual actions and deadlines in the next week. Get out your paper and pen and write out what you would like to achieve and three steps on what to do to work towards that goal. Schedule on your calendar what you will do. Then DO it!  This may seem simple but I know I can get hung up on the thinking part myself.

It is self-motivating to set goals and then achieve them. You feel like you can do anything! Let me share a little story about my own life that has helped me. My kids are in scouts and we love to go camping. Ever since they were little we would go on “adventures”, even if that meant going to the store. One year I decided to take them camping at Table Rock State Park in South Carolina. I am a planner so I wanted to have a loose idea of what we would do each day so there would be no fighting about it later. We knew we wanted to hike the trails and go kayaking but the trails are not easy peasy and you have to plan that stuff out.

I learned that the hard way. The first day we camp, we set up and relax. The second day we figured we would tackle a trail, we thought we were ready. The park ranger warned us with the smirk and off we went…two hours later, down we came exhausted, hot and ready to quit. We went swimming for the rest of that day.

Day 3, we went kayaking after our tremendous failure. I rethought about the plan and realized we needed to start earlier on the trail, have more provisions, and push through more. On Day 4, we were ready again to tackle the great trail.


I loaded up each kid with water, snacks, first aid kit, hiking pole, and a can do it attitude. Mile 1, not so bad. Mile 2, this stuff is for the birds but it’s so beautiful, I don’t care. Mile 3, is this EVER going to END? Can we turn back now? I’m dying. Then you reach the end..beautiful. Well worth the work. Breath-taking. And then you get to go back downhill down the path that kicked your butt on the way up.

Table Rock Trail

Length: 3.6 miles one way
Type: Hiking
Difficulty:  Very Strenuous
Description:  The red blazed, 3.6-mile Table Rock Trail is a very rugged hike within the scenic and popular Table Rock State Park in the northwest corner of South Carolina. There are over 12 miles of trails in the park, but only the Table Rock National Recreation Trail ascends 2,000 feet to the summit of the imposing granite dome, Table Rock Mountain (3,124 feet). The hike begins at the Nature Center and ascends steeply through an open forest strewn with boulders. Along the way, you will see vegetation typical of the Southern Appalachians: dominant oak and hickory trees with scattered pines and hemlock. As you might guess, the strenuous hike offers the reward of spectacular views from the higher rock outcrops.

All the way down I kept telling myself, I just did the Table Rock trail, if I can do this, then I can do anything and no one can tell me I can’t. Look at what I just accomplished! You think that’s hard, try doing the Table Rock trail and then we’ll talk! I was pretty pleased with myself and looking back at these photos, I still feel that way.




Believe me, I was negative talking all the way up this trail, what type of idiot decides to climb 3,000 ft in elevation in 3 miles. This type of idiot. Oh my goodness, this is HARD. Not just hard but really, really hard. I’m tired, I’m hurting, I just want to quit. Can we turn back now? I have to stop so I can breathe. I see my daughter chagrin each time I stop to get my breath. She hates me, why am I doing this? If I slip and die what will my kids do? What if we see a snake on the trail, this is idiotic. We should turn back…it must be easier going back down than climbing up. Will there ever be even ground?

The one thought that kept me going when my muscle ached and I wanted to turn back for the 100th time was that I did not want to disappoint my kids. I told them we were doing this and what type of parent would I be if I didn’t finish this with them? What would that teach them about challenges in life? What would I teach them about me if I quit?

No way. We are doing this! And we did, it was one of our best trips and something we stupidly want to do again. This trip changed my self-talk, I realized the power I have when I talk more motivating to myself than negative. Of course times will be hard but look to the good of the situation and power through it. No moment in life last forever.

Love yourself, believe in yourself, no matter what is going on you can talk lovingly to yourself and stay optimistic, just find the right motivation.

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To Carry or Not to Carry


In my reasoning, if I carried a gun, I was increasing the odds of a horrible mistake occurring- somehow I would shoot someone and not be able to live with myself for taking another’s life. Or worse, I would shoot the wrong person, including myself. Carrying a loaded gun just reeked of opportunity for bad karma to creep in. I did not carry at all; I only had an outside-the-waistband holster for the range without ever buying or concerning myself with an inside-the-waistband holster.

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